Depending on the Kindness of Strangers

Perhaps Blanche Dubois always depended on the kindness of strangers, but I haven’t. I have lived too long in a corporate world where nice guys often finish last, where business decisions are just that, business, and therefore often lack humanity. I don’t expect people to be kind or to put themselves out on my behalf. Of course it still hurts when I encounter mean or thoughtless people, but it rarely comes as a surprise. What does come as a surprise is when I do encounter strangers who are so very kind I am left in awe.

My first novel, Highland Solution, will be released on Tuesday. On one hand this is truly a dream come true–I never thought it would happen. On the other hand, I have to market this book, which means putting myself out there in a field I know little about, asking for help and risking being shot down. Contrary to my expectations, I have encountered some of the warmest, most thoughtful and friendly people that I could ever imagine amongst romance authors.

I will be hosted by several best-selling, award winning, authors on their blogs this coming week. As previously announced, USA Today bestselling author, Sue-Ellen Welfonder, will host me on her blog Tartan Ink (http://tartaninkblog.wordpress.com/) on my release date, Tuesday,
September 3 and award winning author, Laurin Wittig will host me on her blog (http://laurinwittig.com/blog/), Friday, September 6. Both of these wonderful authors have been more kind and welcoming than I could have imagined possible.

Today, it is my pleasure to announce that I will be a guest on NYT and USA Today best-selling author, Karen Ranney’s blog, Warm Fuzzies on Thursday, September 5 and this is what leaves me in awe. When I asked Karen if she would allow me to guest on her blog, I didn’t know that she no longer allowed guest bloggers. However, she decided to make an exception for me and I feel truly honored. Today she discussed why she did this on her Warm Fuzzies blog http://karenranney.com/blog-2/ and now I am both amazed and humbled. As a side note, she visited this website and liked my pictures. I have to give another shout-out and huge thank-you to the talented young photographer who provided them, Bradley Nguyen http://bradnguyenphoto.jimdo.com/.

Please stop by all three of these blogs in the coming week to learn a bit more about me, Highland Solution and Fairy Godmothers. Yes. Fairy Godmothers.

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Listening for the Changing Rhythms

Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10

Our lives have rhythm. We listen and respond as the cadence changes. Sometimes it happens suddenly and drastically, as when we lose a loved one. Other times it happens more gradually as we move through the phases of our lives. Occasionally we don’t recognize the tempo changing immediately and feel out of step, trying desperately to dance to the wrong tune.

I think part of the key to being happy and feeling fulfilled, is realizing when we need to shut out the competing noise and listen. There are times when we need to seek silence so that we can find the rhythm again. For me this sacred silence allows me to listen to God, and to know where He is leading me.

Even the characters in my books seek the comfort of silence occasionally:

“Sitting on one of the benches in the sparsely furnished chapel, Katherine took a deep breath, inhaling the faint aroma of beeswax and incense that seemed to linger in every church. The tension she couldn’t seem to escape in Eithne’s presence slipped away, leaving her feeling calmer than she had in days. She missed this. She prayed quietly for a while. When she reached the end of her litany she simply sat in the stillness, savoring the tranquility. She felt a holiness in simply being still that she couldn’t quite explain, but of all days, today she needed the sacred silence.”

The rhythm of my life is changing. There is a new melody playing and I haven’t quite got it figured out yet. However, I have listened to it and felt it resonate in my soul. This is the dance that is meant for me.

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Historical Romance, Is the Emphasis on the History or the Romance?

Until recently, I never gave this much thought. When someone asks about my favorite genre, my answer is “romance” more specifically “historical romance, with a medieval setting.” I love the escapism afforded by historical romances. What is an historical romance? For me, it is primarily a romance that is not set in the present.

Clearly, by my definition, I have already placed the emphasis on “romance” and in the eyes of some bloggers and readers, I have already sinned. The fact is I want my books to tell an exciting, fictional, romantic story within a setting that is as historically accurate as I can make it. I purposely avoid major historical events because I prefer novels where the history is the setting and not the primary focus. In one of my novels, it is unlikely that you will ever find yourself with Duke William as he leads the Norman invasion or with the Jacobites at the Battle of Culloden. Some people refer to novels like this, somewhat condescendingly as “wallpaper historical romances.” So be it. If my wallpaper looks about right, I am happy.

So how do I define “historical accuracy?” I learn as much as I can about the life style of the era. I try to ensure that social norms, manners of dress, religious practices, medical knowledge and details of daily life are generally accurate. For an excellent example, shall we consider the kilt? Although the very handsome man on the cover of Highland Solution is draped in a tartan; kilts, tartans and “clan colors” are never mentioned in the book. It is unlikely that kilts existed much before the 16th century and the concept of clan specific tartan patterns is even more recent. I do refer to “plaids” and “arisaids.” The simple fact is that the word “plaid” (and the earliest meaning of the word “arisaid”) referred to a blanket or cloak-like garment worn around the shoulders as opposed to the specific weave of the fabric. The earliest “plaids” may have been a single color, or perhaps woven in stripes. The tartan patterns that we refer to today as “plaid” probably didn’t exist in the 14th century.

Do I fault other romance writers for dressing their medieval Highland heroes in kilts? No. There is something undeniably romantic about a kilted warrior, draping his “colors” around his new wife. However, as sweet as it is, it is an image I avoid. In fact, I don’t spend a lot of words describing clothing at all. If readers want to imagine the “plaid” my hero wears as a tartan kilt they can. There is only one article of clothing that I put any emphasis on and that is the brèid or kertch worn over a woman’s hair. Very little else is known about what medieval Highland women wore, but the pure white linen triangle, symbolizing the Holy Trinity was worn by all married women starting the morning after they wed. So, after my heroines are married, they wear a kertch in public.

Another thing that I have heard criticized is the language style that authors use. Some author’s choose to write in a dialect that sounds period or location appropriate. For the most part I don’t. I am telling a story to a modern audience, I don’t want them struggling with syntax. I use just a hint of dialect to help establish the setting. For example I use the word “ye” instead of “you.” I use the commonly recognized words, aye, nay, lad, and lass. I also use the word “wheesht” (meaning “hush”) and “bairn” (meaning “baby”). Other than that, I try to keep the dialogue simple. However, I do try to avoid anachronisms. Although a modern audience would understand my meaning if a character were heading down the hill “full bore,” that particular idiom was first used in the 20th century, so I would avoid it. The origin of the saying “the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree” is much older and could be reasonably used and understood in the 14th century, so I use it.

I’ll save other language issues, medical treatments, religious practices and castle construction for another day. I will close by saying that Highland Solution is a romance, the purpose of which is to warm your heart and entertain. It is set in the medieval Highlands and in my opinion is historically accurate enough to feel real although it is fiction. Are there errors? Probably but I hope they don’t interfere with a reader’s ability to enjoy the story. Someday maybe I will take a page out of George RR Martin’s book and create a medieval-like world that doesn’t really exist in which I can create my own reality with impunity. Until then I hope you feel welcome at Duncurra.

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An excerpt from Highland Solution

Highland SolutionCotharach Castle, Central Scottish Lowlands, June 1359

“Lady Katherine, oh, Lady Katherine, there you are,” said an ashen faced chambermaid as she rushed into the kitchen. “You have to come quick. There are two Highlanders in the great hall with your uncle. Sir Ruthven bid me to fetch you there now.”

Hot, flushed, and certainly not prepared to receive visitors or face her uncle again so soon, Katherine sighed, saying, “You stay here. I’ll go to the great hall alone. It never pays to keep Uncle Ambrose waiting.” At the look of panic on the girl’s face, Katherine added, “I’m sure it’s nothing, don’t worry.”

Katherine froze when she saw at least a dozen rather imposing Highland warriors waiting in the courtyard. An even larger group of Ruthven soldiers kept their distance, observing the strangers cautiously. Knowing she’d pay for it later, she stepped back into the kitchen and asked Moyna to offer them food and ale. Then, fearing she had already kept her uncle waiting too long, she hurried into the great hall.

She entered with her head down. Sometimes a show of subservience tempered her uncle’s anger. He read from an unfurled scroll and didn’t acknowledge her immediately, so, with her eyes still downcast, she took a quick look to her right. Two sets of feet in the open leather shoes Highlanders wore caught her attention. Unbidden, her eyes followed the nearest thickly muscled bare legs up the length of the man’s tall, powerfully built body. He wore typical Highland clothing, a belted linen tunic that barely reached his knees, with a plaid fastened by a brooch around his massive shoulders. She had to tilt her head back to see his face. The grim expression he wore startled her. Clearly this man was not happy and she suspected Uncle Ambrose had something to do with it.

Katherine realized eventually that her uncle didn’t intend to acknowledge her. Unable to stand the tension any longer, she said, “Uncle Ambrose, you sent for me?” Chancing another quick glance at the Highlander she saw his grim expression replaced first by confusion, followed very quickly by anger.

Turning her attention back to Uncle Ambrose, his barely concealed glee worried her. Finally he answered her, “Yes, Katherine, my darling, we have received a missive from the king and it concerns you.”

This is definitely not good. She carefully kept her emotions masked. “Me?” she asked calmly.

“Yes, my sweet. This is Niall MacIan, Laird of Clan MacIan,” he said, gesturing to the angry warrior she had eyed, “and the commander of his guard, Diarmad. Our king has requested that you become Laird MacIan’s wife.” Katherine took a breath and, with supreme will, continued to appear calm and emotionless.

“Requested that I become his wife?” she asked slowly.

“Of course, my dear, it is a request.”

“I can decline this request?

“Of course you can, Katherine. However, His Majesty says if you choose to decline, it is in your best interest, and the best interests of Clan Ruthvan, for me to be named Lord Ruthvan and for you to enter the religious life.”

“And what happens to Cotharach and my people if I accept the proposal?” she asked, a note of panic creeping into her voice.

A look of smug satisfaction crossed her uncle’s face, and he spoke to her as if she were a very dull child.

“Oh, my dear, I have bungled this badly. I will start over and try to help you understand. His Majesty feels it is in the best interests of Clan Ruthvan for me to assume control as Lord Ruthvan and rule Cotharach. He is giving you two options. The one His Majesty prefers is for you to marry Laird MacIan and go with him to his home in the Highlands. As your husband, Laird MacIan will renounce his claim to your title and lands. In return, he will receive an exceedingly generous dowry. However, if this is not acceptable, you may choose to enter the religious life. The good sisters will receive a modest dowry, but His Majesty has determined that Laird MacIan will still receive the bulk of your dowry because of his willingness to aid his king in this matter. Does that make it clear, my dear?”

Katherine felt as if she had descended into swirling chaos and she trembled. Trying not to reveal her inner turmoil, which would add to his pleasure, she bowed her head and whispered, “Aye, uncle. I understand.”

After a moment, she looked directly into the eyes of each of the three men staring at her. In Uncle Ambrose’s expression she read joy, in Diarmad’s, pity, and in Laird MacIan’s, iron determination. She wanted to run—she needed to think.

Her uncle prodded, “Well, dear, which will it be?”

“You want a decision now? Am I to be given no time to consider this?”

In a colder, less unctuous voice, Uncle Ambrose said, “You must choose now. You can leave for the convent within the hour or, if you choose marriage, we will summon Father James and you can be married as soon as he arrives. Laird MacIan is anxious to return to the Highlands, so he wishes to depart immediately after exchanging wedding vows. Either way, you leave today.”

Katherine knew her uncle had won, she just didn’t know how he had done it. From the day her father died, Ambrose had wanted the title and lands that were to be held in reserve for her husband. How had this Highlander been convinced to marry her and relinquish all but a portion of her wealth? She didn’t relish either option. Finally she said flatly, “I will marry.”

“Very well, I will send for Father James.” As Katherine turned to leave, her uncle demanded, “Where are you going?”

She glanced down at the old gown she generally wore when working and realized the absurdity of this situation. She lifted her head, stared at her uncle, and said, “For the next few minutes at least, Uncle, I am Lady Katherine Ruthven. This is my keep. I am going to pack my things and dress for my wedding.”

She turned again to leave the great hall, and for the first time, she heard her betrothed’s voice, “Lass, one bag is all ye’ll be bringing.”

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Highland Solution Cover

Highland Solution Cover

The long-awaited cover art for Highland Solution. The novel, a medieval Highland romance is scheduled for release in September. Stay-tuned for excerpts!

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Brad Nguyen, a truly great photographer

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Photo Credit: Brad Nguyen Photography

Many thanks to Brad Nguyen for the excellent photographs!

Visit his Facebook page to see his talent showcased: https://www.facebook.com/BradNguyenPhotography

http://www.bradnguyenphoto.jimbo.com

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Real Beauty

The Dove® Campaign for Real Beauty kicked off in 2004 and has evolved into the Dove Movement for Self Esteem. Most recently they released a short video called Real Beauty Sketches http://realbeautysketches.dove.us/ with the tag line “Imagine a world where beauty is a source of confidence, not anxiety.” In a nutshell several women were asked to describe themselves to a forensic artist who could not see them. He created a sketch from each woman’s point of view. The women were also asked to “get to know” a stranger. The forensic artist created a sketch from the stranger’s point of view as well. The comparison was frankly astounding.

I found the video profoundly moving as have many people who viewed it. I cannot imagine anyone who would not be moved, but as with everything in life, this video has its critics as well. One opposing view can be found at the following blog site http://jazzylittledrops.tumblr.com/post/48118645174/why-doves-real-beauty-sketches-video-makes-me. The author of this blog acknowledges the positive messages; women are their own harshest critics and that they are more beautiful than they think. However, after that she identifies the flaws that she sees. As I interpret it, the author believes the women in this brief video were not diverse enough or perhaps were too pretty. I quote:

“So you’re beautiful… if you’re thin, don’t have noticeable wrinkles or scars, and have blue eyes. If you’re fat or old… uh, maybe other people don’t think you look as fat and old as you do yourself? Great? Oh, and by the way, there are real women who look like the women on the left. What are you saying about them, exactly?”

I couldn’t disagree more. Dove sent a clear message with a few simple and powerful examples. I suppose the video could have included more diversity, but in my opinion, the message is not diminished.

So what message did I hear? Most women don’t see their own beauty but more importantly, we are absolutely brilliant at seeing beauty in others.

I am fat. I’m old. I have frizzy hair, a sagging chin, wrinkles, scars and moles. That is what I see when I look in the mirror. Last week I went out to lunch with a good friend of mine. The minute she saw me she said “You look beautiful.” I think she is beautiful in every way and I have told her that for years. Me beautiful? I don’t see it. Perhaps I have trained myself not to look for it.

On the other hand, I don’t think I have ever met a woman who I thought was ugly. Undeniably, there is a continuum of beauty. However, other than me, the only people that I am willing to put at the “ugly” end of it are those who proved themselves to be ugly, and that has nothing to do with their appearance.

It breaks my heart that an absolutely beautiful young friend of mine sees a completely distorted image of herself when she looks in the mirror. It somehow doesn’t break my heart to think I might do the same thing, but maybe it should.

Back to the tag line “Imagine a world where beauty is a source of confidence, not anxiety.” I think we have a long way to go and it truly starts with adjusting our self perceptions.
If you don’t think so, watch this Dove video called “Inner Critic” and listen to women identify their least favorite body parts and their most beautiful body part. http://www.dove.us/Tips-Topics-And-Tools/Videos/trilogy.aspx#ooid=dsM3EwYTq6LIrLVO71ihDJldh2N7jnmQ

It may be more diverse than “Real Beauty Sketches” and it is no less astounding. I think the women are all beautiful and I can’t believe what they say about themselves. The video ends with the question “Isn’t it time we saw the beauty in ourselves?”

If I ever get better at seeing it, I’ll let you know.

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One Nation Under God

I pledge allegiance to the flag,

Of the United States of America,

And to the republic for which it stands,

One nation, under God, indivisible,

With liberty and justice for all.

For a number of years debate has raged in the United States about including the words “Under God” in the Pledge of Allegiance. Emotions run high on both sides of the argument. According to Gallup, over 90% of people surveyed in the United States believe in God (http://www.gallup.com/poll/147887/americans-continue-believe-god.aspx), therefore one can assume that most people are not opposed to saying the words “under God.”

This is the way I see it, if a person doesn’t believe in God, that person doesn’t need to say those words. They can simply remain silent while those of us who do believe in God say them. The words “under God” take about one second to say and I realize this is asking for a bit of indulgence from the less than 10% of the population who oppose saying them. Therefore, I have attempted to quantify the amount of time I am asking them to give the majority of us who wish to say the words “under God.”

When do we say the Pledge? I said it most often when I was a student in public school, so I did a rough calculation of the number of times a school student says the pledge of allegiance from Kindergarten to 12th grade. Assuming they say it every weekday for approximately 9 months of the year that would be 195 times a year. This estimate may be high because I have not taken into account holidays, sick day or any other missed days. Therefore most students say the Pledge about 2535 during their school years. For those choosing not to say “under God” that would be about 43 silent minutes in 13 years.

Now, as an adult, I am rarely called upon to say the pledge, maybe only once a year or so. However, for the sake of argument, I will assume that after the age of 18 a person says the Pledge of Allegiance ten times a year. According to the Centers for Disease Control, the current life expectancy from birth in the United States is 78 years (http://www.cdc.gov/nchs/data/nvsr/nvsr61/nvsr61_03.pdf). Therefore that would add 700 seconds, or slightly less than 12 minutes to the total time spent silently not saying “under God” in the average person’s life.

I realize that there are some adults whose jobs require that they say the pledge much more often than 10 times a year. I suspect that teachers say it more than anyone else. Again, using 195 days in a school year and assuming a 30 year career that would mean a teacher who chooses not to say “under God” would spend an additional 98 silent minutes.

So, according to my calculations, the less than 10% of Americans who might chose not to say the words “under God” might spend between 55 and 153 quiet minutes in their life indulging the rest of us (give or take a few minutes). Considering that so far in the debate, this minority has been a very vocal group, I figure that I have already spent countless hours listening to them so I think we are even. However, I have come up with a short list of things they might want to do during that quiet second.

  1. Scratch their heads, or for that matter any body part.
  2. Rub the sleep out of their eyes, the pledge is often said first thing in the morning.
  3. Brush a bit of lint off their left shoulder, the right hand should be close if they are holding it over their heart. Of course if they aren’t holding it over their heart they could brush lint from anywhere really.
  4. Practice arching one eyebrow. I think I worked on this for hours when I was a teenager; they might just be able to accomplish it over a lifetime.
  5. Imagine their inner child with its fingers stuck in its ears loudly saying “I CAN’T HEAR YOU.”
  6. Count the number of times they can blink their eyes during that second. It might be fun to keep track of their personal best.
  7. Try to think of all the words that can be made from the letters “G-O-D.” I realize that a second isn’t much time, but I think there are only 4 anyway.
  8. Think of something else that they can substitute in their head for the word “God.” For example, “One nation under…the sun” or “One nation under…appreciated” or “One nation under…something I don’t believe in.” They would have to think that last one really fast to fit it in.
  9. Perform an isometric exercise, such as clenching their butt cheeks. No wait, they may want to unclench them first.
  10. Remind themselves that freedom of speech applies to everyone, not just those with whom they agree.
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Ignoring Kipling

Sweet Coco

Sweet Coco

It is with joy that I introduce the newest member of our family, Coco. She is 5 a year old, cafe au lait standard poodle and she was born blind. She is not profoundly blind, she seems to see a little in low light, but nothing at all in bright light. She is a real sweetheart and is helping Louis learn a few manners.

So yes, once again I have given my heart to a dog. Let’s hope she doesn’t tear it for a long, long time.

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Rudyard Kipling – The Power of a Dog

I'll miss you.

I’ll miss you.

There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
But when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and sisters I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie–
Perfect passion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years that nature permits
Are closing in asthma or tumors or fits
And the vet’s unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers, or loaded guns.
Then you will find–its your own affair
But–you’ve given your heart to a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will
When the whimper of welcome is stilled (how still!)
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone–wherever it goes–for good,
You still discover how much you care
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

We’ve sorrow enough in the natural way
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we’ve kept ’em the more do we grieve;
For when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short time loan is as bad as a long–
So why in Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

Early in the morning on December 27th, we lost one of the sweetest, gentlest dogs that has ever graced our lives. Chase was a blue Standard Poodle who we adopted five years ago. My heart is broken. Contrary to mainstream christian doctrine, I believe that dogs have souls and do go to heaven. In fact, I’m not sure I want to go to heaven if there are no dogs there. So my lovely boy, I’m sure you’ll find someone to play fetch with until I see you again.

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